i missed u so much! :( sorry for not updating you.. been busy lately esp the activities of commanders..
i've been thinking much lately,did i make the right decision? Since the opening of this sem,all of us are busy with all the activities.. n just for this month,i used ALOTS of $$$.. books, corporate shirt of Dipac n commanders,bju kurung,broadband and other expenses as well...any step that i take confirm will use money...;((...there's left only a few days to Feb.. n my money????? n my hp rosak AGAIN....n i have to sent it for repair AGAIN! :((....kuar again my money from my bank.....gerrrrrr..!!! streessssss o me~~~! n guess what? the activities of commanders which is the Futsal n Dinner,i cannot make it coz that week i will be going to Singapore to fetch my grandma..:(((... n guess whats make me more freaking having a major headache? the date of handing out the document needed for PTPTN is on the same week too!!! i was like......WTF????! OMGosshhh..!!why is this happening to me? WHY? WHY? WHY???!!!!! i will be missing the 3 programme ohhh! :(((( so,meaning? i have to apply again PTPTN for the next sem la....
i missed my buddies..so much.. it is so hard for me this sem. seldom meet them. im at cluster A,they are at cluster B.. i missed the moments during sem 1...everynight i will be going to their room though im at A3,they at A1...for me,its not far..just a block away.. but this sem? omg... luckily i get a sporting roomates.. Qila,leha n risa.. at least im not akward when with them.. not being hiprocrit is the best thing i love.. no need to be like others which u have to follow their way so that u are acceptable by the rest.. im sorry k my pare for less spending time with u guys.. i really want to spend more time with u guys... n thanks for being understanding me..
my siblings of commanders... sometimes i get scared of that word 'siblings'... do we really need to share everything????? hmm... im confused.. sharing is caring. but sometimes sharing is scaring. n some things are just not meant to be shared. im trying my best to get in with them.. so do with the commanders senior.. its a huge changes ok? i never talk to them in my entire life and suddenly im meeting them everyday. im trying my best in showing my respect to them.. n im sorry if i did something wrong in ur guys' eyes.. n sometimes,i just need time for myself,its not that i dont want to hang out with u guys k?
my studies? hmm... i also dont know how far i understand all those subject.. sat at the class but my mind is somewhere else....=.=.. alot of things in my mind.. n till people assumed that im being arrogant for not being friendly to them.. im sorry,if i am walking alone,that will be time im thinking bout so many things,n that time i will not bother bout my surrounding.. if u guys saw me,do please call my name..if its so hard to mention my name,just 'hey' me... n believe me it will wake me up from my thinking mode...
so,what else? hmm... what is happeing to our world right now? people fighting..... live in the same house but not talking to each other? how can that be happening?? what happened to the LOVE word? Where is the LOVE??? *SIGH*
non-stop sigh-ing.. i just hope that everything will be alright. Amen.
its 11.37pm.. i have to go now.. see you later dear blog.
XOXO,
Charry.:)
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