imissusofrickingbad..:(((

hey blog! long time no see,so sorryyyyyy didn't update u for so long...been busy with my works(aching! trip..:P)

well,what's up? hmm... tons of assignments,report to be done..=.='' esp the report bout jalan lasak...adoii.. i still havent touch it eh.. have to print again all those picts... mcm me menyesal jg la volunteer jd photographer for that day..=.=..but what to do? this thing have already happened.. whether i like it or not,i have to do it also..huhuh..n i havent even touch my books to do revision....huhuhuu how am i going to face my final exam? i havent again upload those picts during jalan lasak.. its not that i dont want to upload it okay? i have tons of assignments, quizzes, tests is coming to me.. i want to focus on it 1st bah... CAN KAHHH?? i want that when i upload picts,that time when i am totally free bha.. n i usually upload picts using wi-fi not broadband coz if broadband it will DC when its already 98%...pyn la me geraaammmmm...so i have to on9 using wi-fi then i can upload those picts without having to worry about being DC... to those who asked me bout when i am going to upload those picts// PLEASE BARE N WAIT IT OKAY? it wont vanished also bha...i saved it into my lappy n dont worry if my lappy kena virus(CHOI3!! PALIS2 JAUH2!),it wont effect coz its on my backup files ody..:)))))

its been a while now i didnt talk to u.. how's life? how's is ur gf btw? are u happy with her? i miss u boy.. so much..:///////.....i wish we can turn to the time that we are still together and change my decision...pfft... sound pathetic right? but i know,i can't.. its too late for me chase n fight ur heart back... serve me right...:(((... i wanted to call u but i dont have the nerve to do it.. n u deactivated ur fb.. maybe u r bz...its ok.. just the pict of u i have,im happy with it..  i try not to think much bout u by having activities with my buddies.. cycling,tennis,chatting,watching movies,karaoke,shopping... it helps a lot though.:)))...

but i gotta say that thank u very much,. after we broke up,then i can open my eyes n heart to search for the right 1.. not all guys are jerk..heee.. but now i just wants to focus on my studies which this is the most important 'to-do-list'.. get my cert and get a good job with a good salary..:))) i want to make my family proud of me..:)) n i will do my very hard to achieve my goal.. n guess what? i've been chosen as pembantu exco publisiti...though its only pembantu..its still a hard job ba.. i really1000 didn'y expect it okay? u can see my face when my name was mentioned twice..n i was like ' arrrr? what happened? why my name is suddenly mentioned in a middle of meeting? im blurr..'. but hopefully that i can do my job that will be given later..im sure   my schedule will be pack! oh goshhhhhh...... only God knows how am i feeling right now....

not to forget,i miss my best friend so fricking much tooooo!!:((( mer,i am so sory if i now seldom talk to u.. i was so bz with school's activities..n when i am free is during at night and that time is u has already sleep... i am trying my hard to contact u..really...forgive me my friend. am truly sorryyyyy..:(( how i wish u r here then we can study together just like during high school but its ur decision to continue working.. hmmmm.. i respect ur decision babe.... will support no matter what... i miss n loves u so much..remember that k?

thanks my dear blog for being there when i need u the most.. :))).. will update u more often later k? muahhh..

XOXO,

Charry...

Behind every cloud,there's a silver lining.:))

Hey my blog! i missed you...heee

So,apa cerr??? Story about DBKK marching competition

So,we trained for days for the competition..day till night.. fuhhh!! freaking exhausted but yet it didn't stop us from continuing the training..:)

Well,i am excited about the competition because that is the 1st time i ever join a huge programmed..so,i am trying my best to march during the training..everything is going smoothly but it STOP when i am out from the group... honestly? i am sad...freaking so sad.. ok,i cried like so so so heavy??? it is really gave me a shock when i am not in the marching.. just being the reserved?? OMGoshhh... i am not mad at Kak Saeng.. truly.. im just sad .. everyone is trying to ask me if im ok? after i took my bath that night,i cool down myself for hours.. I've been doing a lot of thinking.. i am a grown up girl... i tried to look at the brighter side.. behind every cloud,there's a silver lining.. maybe i marched sucks,if i join the marching,maybe we will not win the competition...

So,with a heavy heart,i just wake up at 4 AM..get ready for everything.. i just make myself that im okay with all that.. something make me forget the sadness when we reached at Padang Merdeka.. im doing the thing that i loved to do always....guess what? taking pictures.:))))... me kan obsessed with photograph??? heeee... in my mind..so,its better if i didn't join the marching... so,basically my job is to take pict..pict..n pict... heee...

so,yeahh..im wearing the thing that i never expected i will wear..tudung.. i don't like wearing tudung actually.. but since we have to wear it in order to look like all of us in 1 unit..so,how do i look when wearing tudung? HAHa... bida kaaanhh??? don't misunderstand k guys? i am still a Catholic..and will always be a Catholic//:))

so,this are some of the picts i've taken during the competition..

n yEAHHH! JPA Uitm won the 3rd place!!! COngrates guys!! n not forgotten Kesatria,u guys did the best! both of the team are still the best! we will fight back again during TYT....

n maybe it is true,its better i didn't join the march because if i join,we will not win the 3rd place...my march sucks! HUHU... will train again to improve my marching....heeee....

Thats all folks.. i've upload all the picts at FB...just go n view the picts okay?:DD

Last but not least,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL OF U! GONG XI FA CAI! HONG PAO NA LAIIII>>>HAHHA..;DD

So,this year is Rabbit year...hope that everything will be just fine.. AMEN...Peace out..^_^v

XOXO,
Charry...

Dear blog,

i missed u so much! :( sorry for not updating you.. been busy lately esp the activities of commanders..

i've been thinking much lately,did i make the right decision? Since the opening of this sem,all of us are busy with all the activities.. n just for this month,i used ALOTS of $$$.. books, corporate shirt of Dipac n commanders,bju kurung,broadband and other expenses as well...any step that i take confirm will use money...;((...there's left only a few days  to Feb.. n my money????? n my hp rosak AGAIN....n i have to sent it for repair AGAIN! :((....kuar again my money from my bank.....gerrrrrr..!!! streessssss o me~~~! n guess what? the activities of commanders which is the Futsal n Dinner,i cannot make it coz that week i will be going to Singapore to fetch my grandma..:(((... n guess whats make me more freaking having a major headache? the date of handing out the document needed for PTPTN is on the same week too!!! i was like......WTF????! OMGosshhh..!!why is this happening to me? WHY? WHY? WHY???!!!!! i will be missing the 3 programme ohhh! :(((( so,meaning? i have to apply again PTPTN for the next sem la.... 

i missed my buddies..so much.. it is so hard for me this sem. seldom meet them. im at cluster A,they are at cluster B.. i missed the moments during sem 1...everynight i will be going to their room though im at A3,they at A1...for me,its not far..just a block away.. but this sem? omg... luckily i get a sporting roomates.. Qila,leha n risa.. at least im not akward when with them.. not being hiprocrit is the best thing i love.. no need to be like others which u have to follow their way so that u are acceptable by the rest.. im sorry k my pare for less spending time with u guys.. i really want to spend more time with u guys... n thanks for being understanding me.. 

my siblings of commanders... sometimes i get scared of that word 'siblings'... do we really need to share everything????? hmm... im confused.. sharing is caring. but sometimes sharing is scaring. n some things are just not meant to be shared. im trying my best to get in with them.. so do with the commanders senior.. its a huge changes ok? i never talk to them in my entire life and suddenly im meeting them everyday. im trying my best in showing my respect to them.. n im sorry if i did something wrong in ur guys' eyes.. n sometimes,i just need time for myself,its not that i dont want to hang out with u guys k? 

my studies? hmm... i also dont know how far i understand all those subject.. sat at the class but my mind is somewhere else....=.=.. alot of things in my mind..  n till people assumed that im being arrogant for not being friendly to them.. im sorry,if i am walking alone,that will be time im thinking bout so many things,n that time i will not bother bout my surrounding.. if u guys saw me,do please call my name..if its so hard to mention my name,just 'hey' me... n believe me it will wake me up from my thinking mode...

so,what else? hmm... what is happeing to our world right now? people fighting..... live in the same house but not talking to each other? how can that be happening?? what happened to the LOVE word? Where is the LOVE??? *SIGH* 

non-stop sigh-ing.. i just hope that everything will be alright. Amen.

its 11.37pm.. i have to go now.. see you later dear blog. 

XOXO,

Charry.:)